My Favorite Season

                                                           My Favorite Season

So much to plan for within the next week for my Aunt’s fall wedding and then for my much deserved birthday weekend in November. Looking for cute clothes is hard because I’m short (and cute ;))and I’m curvy loosing weight within one week is definitely not going to happen but I’m fine with that I found some cute stuff that won’t be in Old Navy when I go to the store I will most definitely be shopping my but off with the baby sis when I get paid next week. I find it odd that my NYC friends are more excited to see me than my Maryland friends although I haven’t seen any of them in 10 years so it will be a reunion slash birthday party. My crush shall be deployed once more but to Africa and although I will miss texting him and talking to him I can only hope for his safe return. I was hoping that he would be back in NYC by the time my birthday came around but he’ll be gone again not that it really matters because he is of course not my boyfriend. Back to me  I’m excited that I’m actually going to be traveling and actually doing stuff for my birthday for once I just can’t wait to see everyone .

And it's Complicated

And Its Complicated!?!

So I know it’s been awhile but I haven’t really been in the writing mood. I went to see him and things were perfect but as for the status of this sudden weekend rendezvous our status is still questionable. Why did I do this to myself why did I spend all this money on a guy who even after all my efforts still wouldn’t give me the time of day -_- when I got back everything was fine but as time has progressed things have changed no more daily talks on the phone and our texts have become well very limited. Could there be another who has captured his affection probably and I have to say that I of course once more have ended up with the short end of the stick fan freaking tastic ugh it angers me and frustrates me!. I know that I didn’t do anything wrong because I actually can express my feelings and I am not shallow. Maybe I will meet someone one better who isn’t emotionally challenged but it’s been two years I’ve been waiting to meet the right guy forever where the hell is he! I see some terrible women who are with these great guys and I think to myself WTF! Do they see in them does there strong will make them attractive I’m strong willed I just don’t openly express it I take care of myself I pay for my bills, but the guy department is just ridiculous and it seems like the only guys that are attracted to me are little boys who do not have their Sugar.Honey.Iced.Tea together or there just unavailable in some way. But back to the story so I am stuck in this status limbo what are we? When did dating in your 20’s become so difficult? Sigh I just give up =/