Oh My Deliciousness!

I was shopping on friday looking at the Butter aisle and looking for my favorite whipped Cream Cheese by Kraft and I found this lovely delicious Item

Oh Kraft how you made my day with this Yummy Temptation I just thought I would share. I mean honestly who doesn't love Chocolate.

2 Year Update!

Well it’s been 2 years since I’ve blogged and so so much has occurred. Let’s see I am single once more although I did wait patiently  with my ex that I spoke of in my last blog it did not work but we are still pretty good friends. Back to me I am still working at the same place and I am finally taking courses online and majoring in Health and Information Technology for my Associates and I’m going to graduate this summer Yay Me!. Let’s see other accomplishments I got my Learner’s Permit and all I really have to do is take my road test to be able to get my License. More great stuff let’s see I went to Heath Ledgers apartment in SOHO and McGee’s (The pub that How I met Your Mother’s McClaren’s is based off of) while I was in NYC for my birthday. I am going back to the gym again but this time I am sticking with it I am going to get down to my high school size before I graduate. I am motivated to get thing accomplished and once I get me together then I guess I can focus on my “Love Life” no rush I’m still young I want to be young and know what it’s like to have my own place and car. I am so excited to being closer to my goals and I cannot wait to become more independent. :D

Good things come to those that Wait

It was almost two years ago that I decided after my last break up to not end up in another re-bound relationship. Since high school I was never single there was always someone there to temporarily satisfy my loneliness but I decided to go a different route for once I decided to stay single and date around until I was able to finally meet a man that wanted what I wanted which was a serious relationship. The dating journey began and it wasn’t very successful in fact I was personally not even emotionally ready to even date because as soon as some guy showed any interest in me I automatically kind of went back into my normal routine my goal to make them my boyfriend and hope that they would entertain me enough so they would stick around after three dating disasters I revaluated myself and tried to get to know me and spend some quality time with myself sure my social life wasn’t very active but I figured I’d make it active even if it’s on my own.


I mostly just read a lot I read about 18 books, then I went to a convention alone that was interesting but I met a lot of great people and they all liked the same stuff I did. I went to Georgia which I had never been to before and spent some quality time with a certain airman that I had known for almost four years, a few months later I traveled to Florida, and then last but not least my birthday treat to myself a weekend back home to the city that I love dearly New York City all these journey’s I wandered all by lonesome and they were pretty fun. Pretty soon I got back into the dating game and I felt pretty fulfilled met a few people and then came my boyfriend and so far so good.

I know that no one wants to be alone; it wasn’t all that easy there were a lot of sad moments too. But I surrounded myself with positive things like great friends, family and new hobbies. Now I have people asking me for advice and asking me “what’s my secret” I just was patient and now I’m taken. So be patient because your chance at something great can be just around the corner.

My Favorite Season

                                                           My Favorite Season

So much to plan for within the next week for my Aunt’s fall wedding and then for my much deserved birthday weekend in November. Looking for cute clothes is hard because I’m short (and cute ;))and I’m curvy loosing weight within one week is definitely not going to happen but I’m fine with that I found some cute stuff that won’t be in Old Navy when I go to the store I will most definitely be shopping my but off with the baby sis when I get paid next week. I find it odd that my NYC friends are more excited to see me than my Maryland friends although I haven’t seen any of them in 10 years so it will be a reunion slash birthday party. My crush shall be deployed once more but to Africa and although I will miss texting him and talking to him I can only hope for his safe return. I was hoping that he would be back in NYC by the time my birthday came around but he’ll be gone again not that it really matters because he is of course not my boyfriend. Back to me  I’m excited that I’m actually going to be traveling and actually doing stuff for my birthday for once I just can’t wait to see everyone .

And it's Complicated

And Its Complicated!?!

So I know it’s been awhile but I haven’t really been in the writing mood. I went to see him and things were perfect but as for the status of this sudden weekend rendezvous our status is still questionable. Why did I do this to myself why did I spend all this money on a guy who even after all my efforts still wouldn’t give me the time of day -_- when I got back everything was fine but as time has progressed things have changed no more daily talks on the phone and our texts have become well very limited. Could there be another who has captured his affection probably and I have to say that I of course once more have ended up with the short end of the stick fan freaking tastic ugh it angers me and frustrates me!. I know that I didn’t do anything wrong because I actually can express my feelings and I am not shallow. Maybe I will meet someone one better who isn’t emotionally challenged but it’s been two years I’ve been waiting to meet the right guy forever where the hell is he! I see some terrible women who are with these great guys and I think to myself WTF! Do they see in them does there strong will make them attractive I’m strong willed I just don’t openly express it I take care of myself I pay for my bills, but the guy department is just ridiculous and it seems like the only guys that are attracted to me are little boys who do not have their Sugar.Honey.Iced.Tea together or there just unavailable in some way. But back to the story so I am stuck in this status limbo what are we? When did dating in your 20’s become so difficult? Sigh I just give up =/

He Loves Me, He loves me Not ?!

Two months have gone by since my sudden heartbreak and he is now back in my life once more and yet my heart still only palpitates for him, and in one more week I will be hopping on a plane to another state to go and see him am I hoping for anything to become of this daring adventure no! Although deeply inside the hopeless romantic in me hopes that he’ll realize that I am what he wants in a girlfriend and will ask me to be with him.

Sadly this is not so yes he’s attracted to me but his excuse now that he is available “ I don’t want to date anyone” I told him I know it means that he just doesn’t want to date me and that he’ll probably end up dating some girl eventually and he said that I’ll probably be dating someone else which could be true and I have since the first heartbreak but I just couldn’t feel anything for that guy not to mention he has a few screws loose he then of course wanted to change the subject and we did.

He has confessed that he’s physically attracted to me but when it comes to the “Girlfriend” category it’s never been an option that’s why I titled it He loves me He love me not. Each petal represents this high and low that he gives me although there are rarely any low moments I am happy whenever I speak to him he always knows how to mellow me out maybe someday he’ll get down to that last petal and realize he does have the same feeling for me as I do for him.

Step Closer to Normalcy

Ok so our power will finally be turned back on and we will soon be able to return to our house thank god, now if the boyfriend thing and iPod relacement can happen sometime soon I think I will be utterly happy lol :p